Oh, hello. I'm Meaghan O'Connell.
Welcome to my tumblr! I have been writing and reading here since I was a baby, in 2008. These are some of the more extensive/insane things I've written here.
I worked at Tumblr for awhile in the early days, and then Kickstarter for a bit longer.
These days, I get to spend my mornings as a part-time editor for The Billfold, and my afternoons doing whatever the hell I please (okay, writing).
In 2010, I spent a long time co-editing and -publishing and -rallying around a thing called Coming & Crying. If you like sex and feelings and have $8, you can buy the e-book here.
And yeah, follow me on Twitter if you want, you pervert.
Life is hard. Here is someone.
I just started book two of the Knausgaard (this is like my Game of Thrones), which Dustin tried to get me to read forever but I never listen to his book recommendations because we have such different taste, and probably also because I know it drives him crazy. But when Nina loved it, I gave in. It is very boring at parts — purposely so, I’m told, but still don’t quite believe — but I still read it. It’s just this dude writing about his entire banal life (or so he makes it seem to the reader). Slogging through the boring parts make the make the good parts really sing — you really feel them, really know him, and the stakes, and where he’s coming from. I want to dismiss it as almost cheating (narratively), or better yet, indulgent — though if it’s so indulgent, why did I read the whole book and pick up the next one? His style, at first glance, is barely noticeable, but I think must seems to be his personality, his perspective, his own tics and ruminations, end up being style itself.
All I came here to say, though, is that this whole time I have subconsciously imagined the narrator, Karl Ove Knausgaard, to be Louis C.K.
1:49 pm • 4 August 2013 • 4 notes
peter paul and mary lyrics for the arrogant men in your life
He’s a martyr, he thinks he’s a prophet
But he’s a coward, he’s just playing a game
He can’t do it, he can’t change it
It’s been going on for ten thousand years
1:05 pm • 31 July 2013 • 11 notes
This crazy bitch. I’m re-reading A Good Man is Hard to Find for the first time in a long time and let me just say, GIRRRRRRL.
11:10 am • 31 July 2013 • 33 notes
When I first went to school I came home upset, crying to my mother that everyone knew how to read but me.
She laughed and said, Oh baby, no they don’t, how do you know.
Yes they do, Mom, I insisted, I can tell because during Silent Reading time they all look at their books and their lips are moving!
I was very upset.
"Oh, Meaghan," she said. "What do you do while everyone else is reading?"
"Well," I say, "I don’t want anyone to know, so I look at the pages and move my lips."
9:20 pm • 30 July 2013 • 101 notes
Today started with Dustin awake earlier than usual. Six, he says. He decided he would squeeze-spoon me even though I was asleep, because he is evil. In doing so, he woke me up just enough so that I could feel that my arm, too, was asleep — numb — and having him squeeze me was incredibly disturbing and… untenable. I tried to yell “Stop, stop, my arm is asleep!” but what came out, he says, was, “Steep! Steep, steeeeeep.” When I woke up for real a few hours later, he skipped over to the bed and asked me if I remembered what I dreamed about, figuring I would say I was climbing a mountain.
No you sonuvabitch you squeezed my dead arm at six in the morning.
this is poetry, isn’t it? is that silly to think or does anyone else understand why.
It’s a poetic idea rendered poorly. Here I’ll do a new version for you, titled,
No you sonuvabitch you squeezed my dead arm at six in the morning
Today started with Dustin awake earlier than usual. Six, he says. He squeezed me to him, woke me up enough for me to notice that my arm, too, was still asleep — numb. See I was in my body but hadn’t yet grabbed hold of it. He’d gotten there first.
On pins and needles and with great effort, I tried to yell out to him:
“Stop, stop, my arm is asleep!”
What came out, I’m told, was: “Steep! Steep, steeeeeep.”
When, hours later, I sat up in bed, he hurried in from the other room. “Do you want to tell me about your dream?” he asks me, petting my head, ready to hear that I climbed a great mountain.
7:34 pm • 30 July 2013 • 37 notes
an aside / a small thrill
Friday afternoon I was walking down the street in downtown Brooklyn in a terrible mood and a guy holding a cigarette half-walked into me as he passed. Or he didn’t move to the side, and I didn’t either. We played chicken. I was as previously mentioned, despondent enough to barely register it, our shoulders checking each other as we walked. He, however, turned back around and yelled, “HOW DUMB CAN YOU BE, LADY, YOU JUST WALKED INTO MY CIGARETTE.”
In a moment of pure inspiration, I shot up both of my middle fingers and, without turning around, yelled FUCK YOUUUUUUU.
1:26 pm • 28 July 2013 • 65 notes
I wish I had twitter so I could throw out my stream of consciousness opinions about the new Woody Allen movie.
In bullet form:
- Well that was bleak.
- Someone walked ON ME on my way out to get popcorn during the previews. They stepped on my foot and slammed into my body.
- I like how class is suddenly not-invisible to Woody Allen when it’s the Upper East Side and not the Upper West.
- I mean I know they’re richer than the supposed therapist and movie producers in his other films but it would be nice to interrogate (sorry) class in a closer way, outside of caricature.
- It was gooood, but not like, Woody Allen good (to me).
- I guess the caricatures were caricatures of things I don’t care about.
- It’s not really funny or interesting or new or relevatory?
- I know it’s supposed to be some kind of modern retelling of a Streetcar Named Desire but what did it add, really?
- Why do people make us watch so many movies about rich people? Ugh, who cares.
- What was this, like a Wes Anderson movie without the matchy-matchy?
- Cate Blanchett is great to watch sure. But do rich people really talk like that these days? Like fucking Katherine Hepburn? Come on.
- The bouncing back and forth in time is not structurally interesting. There was not much dramatic tension, or enough to justify.
- I want to SEE when the Poor Sister loses the money — show me that scene. Actually, make a movie about that. I don’t give a shit about this Jasmine lady.
- Even though yeah her face without makeup is super harrowing, thanks Woody.
- And I mean yeah I kinda liked it.
- I came home and puked last night. Probably unrelated.
11:02 am • 28 July 2013 • 28 notes
Today started with Dustin awake earlier than usual. Six, he says. He decided he would squeeze-spoon me even though I was asleep, because he is evil. In doing so he woke me up just enough so that I could feel that my arm, too, was asleep — numb — and having him squeeze me was incredibly disturbing and…untenable. I tried to yell “Stop, stop, my arm is asleep!” but what came out, he says, was, “Steep! Steep, steeeeeep.” When I woke up for real a few hours later he skipped over to the bed and asked me if I remembered what I dreamed about, figuring I would say I was climbing a mountain.
No you sonuvabitch you squeezed my dead arm at six in the morning
7:37 pm • 25 July 2013 • 37 notes
people in this coffee shop who need to go kill themselves immediately
- the person next to me who just watched a video out loud (?!?!!!!!!!)
- the man across the way who just said, with complete sincerity, “Travel, to me, is a lifestyle. It’s a way of living.”
- the girl who sat there for a long time explaining to her boyfriend the etymology of her “pet name for everyone she really hearts.” The pet name is “turtle,” derived from “turd,” a name she and one of her friends called each other as a joke. The boyfriend says he really “loves” (sarcasm) the fact that he shares a pet name with the turd guy.
12:06 pm • 24 July 2013 • 56 notes